March 25th, 2010, 07:29 AM
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| Designated Marksman
Join Date: Jul 2009 Location: The United Soviet Peoples Republic of New Jersey
Posts: 552
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Originally Posted by RAMMAC  Unfortunately I still enjoy the rush but the backlash from those around me is what causes me problems. I never realized how much crap my family had to put up with from me when I was in a rage. I recognize that I have to keep a wall between everyone except my close family members because they understand my reactions and can redirect my focus when I get too excited. If I get too familiar with others then I tend to expose my anxiety and my energetic actions scare the dickens out of most people. Heck, I even have issues with how people interpret what I say on this web site because of how I think. I get accused of being cold hearted and hard nosed, I guess I am but I'm tired of apologizing for how I think. | Welcome to my world your not alone in that retrospect. I stopped apologizing, a while ago, i just accepted that that is who i am, but like others have stated ive started church, and a very sidewards thinking helped straighten me out. it took a few years but im better now. point is everyone gets better with time.
no im not a veteran, but i acquired PTSD from a different relm of issues. i still have the highs and lows, but they are more level headed now.
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